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HEEEEEEEEEEY GUUUUUUYYYYY'S I'M BACK (eventually)!!!!!

Okay basically I thought I would write a post about: me reflecting my exchange year, coming back & saying sorry that I didnt post anything in a while, while .... stuff like that.

So basically school started on thursday again and it was okay, not really amazing,but I got home and thought well I can do that. On the hand the next day I thought I'm going to die in school. Well these are properly normel struggels of a teenager.

This are just some cute pictures from after the first school day.

Just to inform anyone who is interested in it, my main 5 subjects are: history, english, politics, biology and german. I'm also doing maths, art, chemistry, something like religios studies, pe and some more but these actually dont count as much as my main subjects. Anyone who knows about the german school system knows what I'm on about.

Soooo now basically last school year I was away for an exchange year, with the most beautiful experiences. I didn't actually came around to post a lot of them, which I really regred and I will post some of them definitly soon. Is it a good excuse to say that my life was to great to find the time to post anything? Buuuuut I uplouded some video's of my year !!!

Anyway after hundrest times talking to teachers, friends, family and lots of planning, my parents decided it wouldnt be a great idea to stay in england, even so they understand my love to this country, but I have to do my Abi (german a levels).
For me that was kind of understandable but more then hard. I fell like if there is one thing I would want to tell someone who goes on an exchange year, if it get's nearly unpossible to go home you had an amazing time and you shouldn't regret anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So obviously its more then hard to get back into life and after nearly two month back and a visit from Connor, I still haven't settelt down and properly wouldn't. But thats okay (I always felt more home in England). It makes me concentrate on the school. To finish that s*** as fast and good as I can, to go back to england. I just thought about things that would make me more positive and happy again.
Here is a list of things that could help exchange student that miss there exchange country too much:

have goals - plan your future, how do you achieve living in your host country? (I'm planing to finish school and do a foundation course in art at my old exchange school, to then apply for lots of schoolarships for uni's in england) extra tip: vist the website of the uni you want to vistit + find out what you have to do to get a schoolarship and to just stay excited.
travel - which obviously means you get distracted and experience new stuff and that you can visit you friends in your host country.
get a job - you need money to travel and see your friends but also it's a good thing to let time pass by faster and be distracted.
skype/text- you have to figure out how much is good for you, but often I just fell like I dont know what my friends are up to and obviously I dont want to know every detail of their life but I get a bit upset knowing I would have known these detail just because I would have spend all my time with them. So getting an update of their life is always lovely.
enjoy what you have know - that can be enjoying time with your family, being alone (which can be somehow weird after an exchange year) and for me most of all to enjoy the seasons. I missed out all summer by being sad and the time went by so fast if I just think about it. I dont want that that happens with October so I prepared another list of things I want to do this autumn/winter.

But first of all I want to show you some of my pictures from autumn last year and tell you that it is okay to be upset. It's even okay to fall in a really big, deep, dark hole for a while. The only really important thing is that you at least sometime come out and have a look around how beautiful the world can be. Stay strong and don't give up because it's just hard now. Your dreams seem to be big enough that they're not to easy to achieve but worth it!

My hostmum and scampi aroound halloween :D

me with pink hair and my host mum sry for the quality :/

totness

me and the girls getting ready for a halloween party

picture of our first partx

totness

sonia in totness

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sonia in totness

elisabeth and sonia in school

elisabeth

sonia

Soooo here is the list of things I want to do this autumn time:

I want/will go to england and visit Connor and all the others + hopefully celebrate my 18. bday with them.
take autumn pictures.
be positive ... be positive about school.
do lots of art !!!!
read - the last book I read was Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami and I planned to do a blog post about it. Also my new book just arrived. I's called dance,dance, dance and is by Haruki Murakami too.
rain walks - nothing more to say to that.
carving pumkins + decorating the house for halloween
collecting leaves
season related cockies
going to see different art exhibitions (Van Gogh and Edvard Munch in Amsterdam, Preise der Nationalgalerie für Junge Kunst in Berlin, Thomas Hirschhorn. Nachwirkung. in Bremen, Zehn Räume, drei Loggien und ein Saal in Hannover).